It’s bad, not illegal

Heard

Expectation kills, but obsession murders.

-Hellishqueen

My best friend had promised me to take me to an art festival.I love arts, artifacts and that place is fabulously famous. I haven’t been there before so I was very excited to go. I had early morning lecture and so I woke up early in the morning even before the dawn. Took all my makeup stuff in the bag, my pink dress, notebook etc. I ran directly to my gym. I reached even before it was opened. After my gym session, I changed my clothes and rushed towards the railway station.
Then, as I opened my bag to find something to eat, it occurred to me that I forgot my lunchbox and box of fruits at home in a hurry. I did my makeup on the train, (yes it was awkward, but I had to due to a shortage of time). Ready to fiddle through my day, I met my friend and she said, she can’t come with me because she has to go meet her boyfriend. Even she had just met him a day before, I don’t know what was so urgent.
I didn’t have any problem, of course. But, what hurt me was her priority was him even though I had accompanied her whenever she had asked me to even if I was busy. I mean, this may sound childish to you all, but I am a kind of possessive person, not a crazy. I can understand. Since it was the last day of the festival. She just didn’t care how much I wanted to go to the fest. And, I was so angry and upset. I didn’t wait for a second after the lecture, not even to say her a goodbye. I wasted my whole day thinking the kind of priority she was to me. But, now I can’t be the same person to her. I just cannot get this out of my mind. I don’t care to go to the festival. I only care the way she treated me. She wasn’t even sorry for it. I think, now on she’ll see how cruel I can be when I change my priority.

Oversight

Oversight

Give me my nights

When I was sleepless.

Give me my days

When I was helpless.

There you stood watching me

Love and care were not seen till miles.

You always fake a smile

I hate this loveless mercy

To make me realize you’re nice.

Give me my pain

I wasted on you

Give me my cries

which you ignored.

I know your heartbreak in college life

Why are you punishing me?

For the mistake I never did.

Return my poems

I should not have written on you

And see, still I am writing

Something on you.

 

 

Rolling stone

Marathon

Rolling like a stone
I was changed into something I was not
You’ve murdered a part of me I miss
The girl who always believed.
Believed in you
When you changed me into new
I felt so refreshed
Thought you’re the special
I have waited so long.
The sadness took over
When I saw your comment on a post
You had written for some other girl
“I waited for you”
At last but not least
The story has a happy ending
When you tried talking to me
And, I ignored
As you are just a bad memory.

 

What’s wrong with me?

Exquisite

Cutting the pages to think what I should write?
Why can’t I find a topic?
Even I have so many in my mind
Am beautiful, I feel ugly sometimes
What’s the catch?
I make bad decisions every time
I hate myself for always being kind.
Maybe this is not the way to define beautiful
Oh Gosh! Am already 23!
When I will be peaceful.
I am often abnormal
There is nothing like a beautiful heart
People will judge
No matter the beauty of you inside.
I want to write something loving
God! Spare me struggling
To get my hand and mind in line
Am wasting my time!
Am wasting my life!
Isn’t there anything beautiful about me?
Oh dear!
I have world’s best Mom
I don’t need people who make me feel shady
Those creeps are needless in my life.

I don’t want to get too close

via Daily Prompt: Uneven

I’ll be your friend

Not be like you.

I’ll be present when you want

Not follow your tail.

It’s been really too late

For me to realize

I have my own life

To be myself.

Since I miss my time which I wasted

Crying under a bedsheet

Or having a bad day

When no one noticed

Just to know what wrong I did?

That all my old friends left.

I’ll be your friend

Help you in all circumstance

But, when I want to be me

Wherever I want to go

I’ll not wait for your advice.

You’ll find me weird

I know people talk this though

Still, I’ll be your friend

You’ll realize I don’t want to get close.

Threads

Shine

The colorful lines I roll

Which goes on strengthening as it dwells

Can it bring you and me closer?

Will it be stitched on my pain?

Threads bind and shatters

They are simple as well as shines

Help me give it an aura

So, we can get rounded as the threads getting tied.

Please catch me, when it breaks

Just hold my hand as you see it terminate

Else, you’ll see me sink like before

So, I will grab the thread

And, let you fall without a thought.

 

 

Remembering the past

picsart_12-28-03-59-11Retrospective

I hate to look back and also to remember stuff that was so disturbing or unwanted. But, my blog is the one place where I love to look in the past and the words I wrote spontaneously. I never knew, remembering the past would be so adorable.

My blog is just new, It hasn’t been one year. But, I am in love with my experience. I enjoy making friends who are same like me. They understand my writings, feelings and are also encouraging. I am would be glad if I would have been the same for them. I learned a lot and the changes that came over in less than one year is incredible. I always wanted to write my feelings, my ideas, and my pain if there has been in any situation.But, there wasn’t any platform to depict the words inside me jumping to come out of my head to my fingers, and from my fingers to my blog. The most important thing I didn’t know was the change a writing can bring in one person. The only disadvantage is that all my blogger friends are on my laptop and I don’t get to interact with them in person which would be an awesome thing even if I imagine. download (1).png

The above is the word cloud which is in a mixed format so maybe it won’t make any sense. Still, I can proudly say I have written over this topics and also converted into a feeling.

I am feeling grateful to the viewers of my blog. They have given me an incredible response. And, even though if you didn’t like some post feel free to comment. I would like to improve myself. Love you all !!! It is all because of your support that I have made this far. I am proudly stating that the most liked and viewed tags and categories on my blog is POEMS. I am glad you all liked it.

The most famous posts from my blog are: 

1] Talk to my hand

https://hellishqueen.wordpress.com/2016/12/18/talk-to-my-hand-2/

This is the story of a girl (Mary) who was abandoned by her boyfriend because he was actually in love with another unknown girl and wasn’t disclosing this to Mary. The story concentrates how Mary overcame her mourning period. Sometimes, kindness doesn’t work.

2]My-my-mystical

https://hellishqueen.wordpress.com/2016/12/11/my-my-mystical/

The poem concentrates on a girl who moves on from the breakup and realizes she is actually so mystical.

3] When we get lost 

https://hellishqueen.wordpress.com/2016/10/06/when-we-get-lost/

This is a quote. It concentrates on an issue of hanging on the love which we think we deserve but don’t get like having a crush on special one. That is why we can get into depression and stress, which eventually leads to suicide. So we should also try to meet other people who actually love us rather than thinking about the person who doesn’t care for us.

4] People nowadays

https://hellishqueen.wordpress.com/2016/09/26/people-now-a-days/

This quote is highly famous from my blog and I got an overwhelming response for this. I won’t write anything on this. Maybe you should have a look 🙂

5] Pretend to be okay

https://hellishqueen.wordpress.com/2016/09/25/pretend-to-be-okay/

People loved this quote a lot. Thank you again all of you.

6] The facts about poets

https://hellishqueen.wordpress.com/2016/08/28/the-fact-about-poets/

This is the most viewed article of all time. Maybe you should also see the fact. I hope you’ll love it too.

I hope you will love other posts from my blog. Thanks for reading.

Poem for this year: 

Read more you’ll know

Write so others can know 

Make an exception so you can prove

Forget all the pain

And, this will be your best move!!!

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