Oversight

Oversight

Give me my nights

When I was sleepless.

Give me my days

When I was helpless.

There you stood watching me

Love and care were not seen till miles.

You always fake a smile

I hate this loveless mercy

To make me realize you’re nice.

Give me my pain

I wasted on you

Give me my cries

which you ignored.

I know your heartbreak in college life

Why are you punishing me?

For the mistake I never did.

Return my poems

I should not have written on you

And see, still I am writing

Something on you.

 

 

Rolling stone

Marathon

Rolling like a stone
I was changed into something I was not
You’ve murdered a part of me I miss
The girl who always believed.
Believed in you
When you changed me into new
I felt so refreshed
Thought you’re the special
I have waited so long.
The sadness took over
When I saw your comment on a post
You had written for some other girl
“I waited for you”
At last but not least
The story has a happy ending
When you tried talking to me
And, I ignored
As you are just a bad memory.

 

Threads

Shine

The colorful lines I roll

Which goes on strengthening as it dwells

Can it bring you and me closer?

Will it be stitched on my pain?

Threads bind and shatters

They are simple as well as shines

Help me give it an aura

So, we can get rounded as the threads getting tied.

Please catch me, when it breaks

Just hold my hand as you see it terminate

Else, you’ll see me sink like before

So, I will grab the thread

And, let you fall without a thought.

 

 

Talk to my hand

Moody

It was 3 Pm, Marie was at work and texted I love you, John.

The message was delivered and so she was staring at the screen for John to read the message and reply her back in his romantic tone of message and smileys. It was 2 minute that Marie was running out of patience and decided to call him. But, she remembered her last call to John ended up with disappointment. Marie called John frequently to talk about her day, making plans, her experiment which she does in the lab. John seemed uninterested in her topics. She also tried being romantic but it was of no use to bring the John behave like happy old days. She just didn’t know the reason behind his strange behavior. So she kept the phone down back in the drawer. Nothing can stop her from messaging her to John when she misses him so much, and this was that time. Rather than listening to his harsh tone and in hesitation. She started typing that there’s a new restaurant in downtown and they should definitely try it in evening. She pressed send option. Then again she remembered that John did not like paying bills. So she also texted him that she would be paying the bills.

It wasn’t like John was the unsuccessful person, he was one of the best business analysts. It was months John had taken Marie out for a date and Marie thought this would be the reason because he said it her once that he don’t like paying bills so cannot go out for dinner.

What kind of a boyfriend does that?

She was nervous and happy to go out with him. She was waiting eagerly at the bus stop for him. When she saw him coming. Smiling.

Ah, everything’s fine

That evening, no matter how hard Marie tried being romantic, John just dropped the topic. Eventually, Marie didn’t want to spoil the evening and so went along with his side of talks. He didn’t even wait to spend time with her. Just left.

Marie saw him going. Sadly.

Weeks passed by, Marie didn’t receive any messages from him. So it was clear like pure rain water or mirror that could reflect light or black surface that could absorb whole heat that John has lost interest in her.

She just didn’t know what to do, how to bring him back!

All efforts to ignore his behavior or getting along with his loss of interest thing and forgetting about him were in vain.

She just loved him so much!

One night when Marie was watching TV with her family with John dominating her mind, her phone blinked as a message is received. She checked it and a wide smile spread on her face. It was John. They talked about movies, music, work and etc for hours through messages.

Then, Marie send him a text asking what his problem was!

It was almost an hour in the argument that John denied telling her anything. That was when she quit! Stopped asking him and thought to behave as their breakup never minded her. She was enjoying her life more than she was with John.

Some weeks later:

Marie started hearing rumors about a girl who John was dating. This was a sudden shock right to her nerves, but she pretended to be as cool as ice on her head would be. Something was cracking and shouting inside her that still, she is struggling her feelings for John, he has set out with another girl so soon like she mattered nothing to him from the start and all his romance was fake, on the outside, she was smooth as a music.

She prayed for all the rumors to be fake. To her horror, one day she finds out she was absolutely wrong.

Then she realized that John was actually in love with this another girl and this was the reason he denied telling her why he was a changed man to Marie. Why he cannot be a normal boyfriend and love her like she wanted him to do. All her trust in love and magnificent hope for getting back in life as she was before vanished. The person whom she loved most, did everything for his happiness never ever bothered about her feelings.

All she could think about was I can never be in love with someone. But, I’ll never spare this man for hurting me, for not taking care of me, leaving me to rot in my mourning period.

—-xxx—-

Marie had become a successful researcher. It was cold evening when she was walking back home from work and on her way she saw couples holding hands, hugging under a shade of the tree where no one can see them. Now she found it very creepy. She can never think about this ever, also she hated her old self when she gave more importance to others than herself which was the main reason for her low confidence.

Later that evening she posted a photo on Instagram with her colleagues having waffles at a famous snacks store just opened in her city. John was one of her followers to like it. Well, she was obviously not following him back.

Her mobile blinked a text as she was going to bed. It was John.

You look beautiful in the photo. The number was not saved in her phone, but she could see his display photo and figured out it was him.

The very nice thing that she did was to delete that freak’s message and went to sleep calmly.

Moral: The only thing that Marie wanted was to be kind and not to lose her anger and friendship to John, she thought it might be easy to stay friends. But, the more she stayed in his environment the more she was disappointed. Maybe Marie was too weak and emotional to move on and when you are too weak, just let the person go on his way and stop being kind to them. Behave the way they did to you. Make them realize that they are also unimportant for you as you are to them. In short, being kind is not an option for all situation, there has to be some roughness in you to handle such circumstances.

This is who you are Mr. ex

Let’s make memories you said
Not from the bright end, you meant
It was about something dark hidden in you
I tried to vanish it in blues.
You abandoned me to search for something new
I may be the worst person you ever met
And the one you’ll never get
I don’t care who you are with
Because you’re just a maniac with flapping wings.
I knew, the darkness has eaten you up all
You’re its hostage
You’re a Con.
Now again you are looking for someone to save you
Out of the drama and hell of the emotions
You want people to go through.
You are playing the same game
You will never be ready to settle in
Listen, no one can actually help you
Until you realize your mistake by leaving me.
You want a person to be near you
Always and ever
Begging you to not leave and just stay.
You are the junkie of fast food
That everyone likes to have
But its better if it is thrown away in garbage
With the things, those are harmful.

Pizza forever

Pizza, pizza, pizza
I wanna chew, taste and feel
The soft bread, types of cheese
That’s actually so unhealthy.

You are my friend or enemy
Then tell me a secret
You have kept hidden from me
That I can eat you as much as I want
And, still not get fat or bulky.

Yeah I know
I am a fitness freak
So If I try to leave you out of passion
Please understand
I really don’t hate you
It’s just situated in my mind
To exercise double after I eat.

You are my friend forever
My darling indeed
You get customized according to my mood and needs
Onion or crisp capsicum
Many toppings you give
Now I’ll go with mushrooms and black olives

Don’t worry, love
I won’t abandon you
Trust me.
You are satisfaction to my soul
The taste I’ll always remember
Your name will always be there in my menu.
I’ll always be there for you
I know, you’ll be there for me too.

Simply me.

Yes, I am hysterical. Ridiculous.
In a way to care more, love more and try not to leave you till the end.
But, If you wanna exit
I won’t force you to stay
Just remember
There’s no way back in again.
I will give you the world
But choose to spurn it.
You’ll have to find it some where else!
-rakhioverhere

Can anyone be so perfect?

Perfection

I am was left speechless,
so wordless
I died to see him
He is so perfect.

He ruled my thoughts
Overtook my mind
Controlled my heart
with every beat that strikes

I kept on denying
This cannot be happening
I may lose some words for him to describe

Perfect is always beautiful, so he is too
Capable of making me smile in his absence
But, he doesn’t know that he could
His memories are less, still unending
Even if he left me many times in dismay
I have wondered how I can make him surprised

I can never think of trouble him
though he has done it several times
From short tempered at precluding stuff
Towards him, I always pardoned and became fine

I knew, he will never bother to keep me
As I do towards him
Because classic is found so rare
I cannot risk missing it

In my struggle to keep him by my side
Indeed, he has tried getting away
I remember those tears that left my eyes
When last time he has asked me to stop to speak
This was so difficult, I knew
I would text him another day

I reversed my thoughts to the back
Where my self-respect was my superiority
He may be absolute for his tail of friends
To whom he keeps on pampering
I promised myself if this is what you want
I cannot risk my morale around
Then no problem, I have so many friends as stranger
You’ll be the next mysterious stranger in the town.